I will not be that girl…

I don’t want to be that girl. The one that complains about all her ailments and problems in her blog…but lately, I seriously need a freakin’ break! We all know I miscarried last month very early in my pregnancy (4 weeks 5 days), I’m dealing with this very well, at least I think so. Jared and I are already trying again and hoping for the best this cycle. I’ve heard you are more fertile your first three months after miscarrying. We will be elated if we get pregnant right away, if not, we’ll manage. It will happen for us, that I am sure of.

On another note, when I had my physical last month the doctor found a nodule on my thyroid. Last week I went for an ultrasound and yesterday had my follow-up appointment. He said nodules are very common and many people don’t even know they have them. Mine is relatively small he said (2cm). He took a biopsy of the cells and I go back Friday for the results. More than likely I’ll have to go back every 6 months so he can monitor it and make sure it doesn’t grow. He also had me go for bloodwork to test my thyroid levels because my pulse was high…I personally think it was just because I was super nervous, but I like that he was being proactive.

So now I have to wait until Friday. I’m not going to lie, Jared is freaking out thinking the worst. Even if it’s the worst, cancer (cringe!), it’s 100% curable. And there’s a very very slim chance that that’s what it even is. So right now I’m being the strong one, for my husband. I told him Friday after my appointment we’ll go out for ice cream to celebrate the good news! He just keeps telling me “it’s not fair, that I don’t deserve this.” Seriously, I know this…I have been through way too much in my life to even add on something like this. But, I am not that girl. I am strong, and always optimistic, and I will continue to be this way. Whatever curves life throws at us, I will always be strong. I have to be.