Happy 2nd Birthday, Avery!

Avery,

Oh, my sweet little Avery bug. Today, at 8:58 AM, you are 2 years old. I remember that day like it was yesterday. It’s one of the happiest days of my life. One of my happiest memories, tucked away for me to always look back on. You were the most perfect, beautiful 9 pound baby. I still remember looking at you for the first time. Completely in awe of every inch of you. Looking into those big blue eyes, while your tiny hand wrapped around my finger. In that moment, time stood still. You captured my heart, and have held onto it since.

You my sweet baby bug are our last little baby. The final piece to our family. And that makes you so very, very special. 

From the moment you were born, I tried to savor each and every moment. Hoping that somehow time wouldn’t move so quickly. I wanted to remember each tiny detail, knowing I would never have a newborn of my own again. 

Because of the accident, this past year has been the worst year of my life. The hardest part of it, was the time I lost with you. I feel like I lost this entire year with you, and it tears me apart. I can only imagine how hard it was on you. For your mommy to completely disappear from your life. For me to be unable to physically care for you. For you to not be able to be comforted by your mommy. Those moments were stolen from us, and I wish more than anything that we could have that time back. 

But I refuse to dwell in the past. I am thankful to still be alive to be your mommy. I am trying to make up for all that time missed. And believe me, I truly treasure each snuggle with you, my baby. Nothing makes me happier or warms my heart more, than when you lay your head down on my chest, and cuddle right in to drift off to sleep. 

My last little baby. And “my baby” you so are. Your Daddy and I try to preserve every last piece of your baby-ness. You are our little baby bug. Always. And we love you. Oh, how we love you. You truly do complete our family.

I love you my sweet Avery bug. Happy 2nd Birthday! Thank you for choosing me to be your Mommy. Thank you for completing our family. I cannot wait to watch you grow.

Love you forever,

Momma