Things were getting easier. More normal, if I dare say. We started to vacation again. I could finally be alone with the boys overnight when Jared had to work. I was invited to the Disney Social Media Moms Conference, and we just started our countdown to the big celebration! It really seemed as though things were looking up! After such a hard year, things were finally better. Happier. For my family, but especially for my children. The things they had to go through this past year are truly heartbreaking. It seemed as if they could finally begin to have some sort of normalcy. Would it be the same as before? No. Definitely not. But it would be our new normal.
I really, truly believed things were going to be okay.
That was until last weekend. I re-fractured my left femur, which of course is related to my injuries from our car accident in January 2015.
Instead of the fun things I planned on Lincoln’s spring vacation, he spent it at my parents house with Avery, while I had surgery to repair my femur.
Without going into all of the nitty gritty details, I’m sure you can all imagine how upset I am. How angry. How frustrated. Why us? Why our family? I will never understand why.
So now we have to take ten steps backwards. I wasn’t even fully recovered, and now I need to start over.
My poor kids. How incredibly unfair. I don’t want to sound like I’m whining, but really, they don’t deserve this.
We had to cancel our invite to DisneySMMC. I had to tell my kids we wouldn’t be going to Disney World next month, even though we had literally started our countdown days before. While I hope for another invite next year, I was truly looking forward to this years celebration.
So that’s where we are. And for now, we start over; because what other choice do we really have? All we can do is hope. Hope for brighter days ahead. Hope for our future. Hope my children will bounce back from yet another disappointment, and know how much they are loved. Hope they know they are my reason for everything. Hope to reach our new normal, and not have it come crashing down.