I have not had any time to myself, since Lincoln was born. Don’t misunderstand me. I LOVE being able to be a stay at home Mom. I LOVE being with my sweet boy 24/7. I wouldn’t change any of that for the world. But, sometimes you need some time for yourself. To remember who YOU are, rather than just “Lincoln’s Mommy.” I love that title dearly. But, my sweet boy is 20 months old, and I think I was [way] overdue for some “me time.”
My Mom spent the night with us on Saturday. She asked me if she could take Lincoln back with her to Rhode Island. Jared & I were already planning on going there Tuesday night, so he would be there two nights, without us. My first reaction was, “OMG YES! I’ll have some time to myself to do :::gasp::: WHATEVER I want, WHENEVER I want. I can go shopping, ALONE, & browse as long as I’d like.”
Then. The guilt set in. I’ve NEVER been without Lincoln. He’s NEVER been without his Momma. He will think I abandoned him. I will miss him. He will miss me! All sorts of crazy things went through my head.
Then I thought. My Mom loves Lincoln more than anything in the world. My Dad’s in Florida right now, and I’m sure she misses him like crazy. Lincoln loves loves LOVES his Grammy. It will be good for my Mom. It will be good for Lincoln. So, I let him go.
My parents house is like a second home to Lincoln. While Jared was in the Police Academy, Lincoln and I spent all week there, for six months. He loves that house. My Mom said he’s doing great, and I cannot wait to see him tonight. I can just picture his little smiling face when he sees me, while he’s running to me for the biggest hug ever. Can. Not. Wait. 🙂
I have enjoyed myself these past two days. I went shopping alone for the first time since I was 30 weeks pregnant. That’s when I could no longer drive, because I couldn’t fit behind the wheel. I went to the craft store, and bought a few things to make…which I will post about another day. But, I’m ready to see my sweet boy.
I’ve been talking to him on the phone each night to say I love you & good night. He’s quite the chatty man with me on the phone. My Mom sent me this picture last night of him talking to me 🙂
Look at his hair?! Is it possible he got more hair in just two days?! Oh, & I totally snuggled up with his Yo Gabba Gabba blankie during the night. Jared laughed at me, but I didn’t care one bit! Tonight, it’s back to reality, but I have certainly enjoyed my “me time.”